My Daughter

I am writing this because I think of my precious daughter, Holly. A woman of such dignity, grace, honor, love, faithfulness, and strength. And when she has all these qualities why does she struggle? In her moments of struggling I find it the most difficult for me. My head is telling me that Carleigh is with Jesus and she is so healthy, more than we can ever imagine. And in that thinking I can possibly go on with the day to day living. And I miss her so terribly that I know with the pain I am having with it all , as a grandmother , that it has to be much more difficult for my daughter.
My heart is telling me she is in so much pain and there isn't anything I can do for her. Does anyone understand how I am feeling? Is Jesus hearing my cry for her? When I read her blogs it tears at my heart. I know she will always feel this way until the day she is reunited with Carleigh. And for me my day of healing won't come until I know my little girl isn't hurting as much. Is this the road we are now destined to be on for the remainder of our time on earth? I do know that the old saying "Time heals all wounds" is true because we have been down this road many times and time has helped. But, is this time different?
I also know that devotions, and Bible reading and Prayer are the only answers, it's the ONLY way to heal now. But, as her mother I can't even begin to start the journey to heal until I know she is going to be alright. By seeing the sparkle in her eyes again, by seeing the smile on her face again, by hearing the happiness in her voice again. This is my prayer for her. Please, Jesus, help her to heal.