Church II

What is it that draws us in? What is it that keeps us hungering for more? We are looking forward to church on Sunday as we are transferring our membership to our new church and honestly I can't wait!!!! This church is so much more than what we had. Don't get me wrong, I liked our old church, we had been going there since Katrina and Holly were in the 3 rd and 4th grade. And the girls even got married there. One would think being there that long we would still be there. But, after a whole year of thinking I just wasted a whole year, I knew it was time to do something. I personally wasn't growing spiritually anymore and was finding myself making excuses NOT to go. I wasn't getting ANYTHING out of the sermons and felt like I (we) were going through the motions. What is the point or purpose of going if you just go through the motions? I feel alot of people are doing just that. We felt also that if we didn't do something we were going to lose our kids also and we came to far to let that happen. Alot of families pray for their grown children to go to church and we were lucky enough that our girls were going. Didn't want to lose something that precious.
Having conversations with some friends, I made the comment that if John had decided to stay I was leaving anyway, I couldn't bring myself to stay where I wasn't getting spiritually fed and growing as a Christian. I (we) had come to far to raise our daughters in the church to just leave it and stay home and go about our daily living. There was more to it and to life. Don't people realize that you alone are responsible for your entering Heaven? No one else can get you there but you, you are accountable for you. Our daughters truly love the Lord, and now I see it in the son-in-laws too. Now handing down the same love for Jesus in our grandchildren. The thing I regret the most is not doing it earlier for my daughters, but know there is a purpose for everything. I am confident the Lord is proud of where we are today. I am also a believer that John and I wouldn't have what we do today if it weren't for giving to the Lord. He knows what we can give and what we can't. But, when he gives us the opportunity to be able to give more then we should. How easily it can all be taken away. Why do we always try to have more? When we leave this earth we can't take it anyway, so, why???
I know that if we never have anything else than what we have now and we only take care of the basics of living I can truly say I am satisfied. The love of my Savior, husband, and family are more important to me.
My little sweet Carleigh, has taught me what is important. I only want to live for Jesus and see him someday. Nothing on this earth is more important. Does any of this make sense?
I have always told the girls that I want to know where they stand and how they believe and know they are ok before anything would happen to me. I told them I want them to live for Jesus and what he tells us to do and LIVE it. I want us ALL in Heaven someday as a family and not half of us there. That would be the only thing I would ever worry about. Carleigh is already there enjoying the rewards and I want it too. Maybe that is what keeps me hungering for more.
Our new church is so very loving,we feel it every Sunday and the people are so warm and friendly all the time, we can see the difference. I think God put us there for a reason. He knows our family has so much to offer to Him and the church. I am so grateful for the silent whisper that he gave me adn for listening to him. Thank you Jesus, for leading us to a new church home!!!!!!

Follow Up

Yes, it took me a while to get to sleep but finally did and then I woke up around 7:45. So, now i have a load on the line and getting another one around. I think they will dry fast today as it is sunny and windy. Hopefully by the time i get the next one out the first will be dry. That is the kind of laundry day I like.
I did remember from last night that we ate at 8 pm and then I had caffeine and chocolate on top of it. Think that was the problem?????? You can be sure I won't do that again.
Getting the carpet laid today in the spare bathroom and I am so glad I have been tore up since it flooded and that was in Dec (while we were on vacation). I like to remodel but hate that it takes so long. Going to go open some windows so thanks for the taking the time to check ion.

Sleep

Why is it when we can't sleep a 1,000 things run through our head. I know I should be sleeping and it is after 1 am. I'm not sure if it is the sleep or I let my mind take control and put thoughts there and then can't shake them. Or is that the devil doing his work on me? I thought I was doing ok around 12 and was finishing putting pictures of Carleigh in my album so I could go to bed. Got into bed and asked John if it was me or if it was hot. He said it was hot. Well, that made me feel good, (thought I was having a hot flash, which I haven't started those yet). Laid there a couple more seconds and got up so I wouldn't wake him and here is where I have been . On the computer, thinking it will make me sleepy. It's not working.
So, now my mind is wondering and making me think thoughts of diabetes. Both of my parents have it. I know that I gained some of my weight back, so the sugar and the cholesterol are probably back up there again. So, the mind wonders and then I start to think I have every symptom . Which makes it hard to sleep.
I am going to get with Lisa, (my neighbor) this am to start back at walking like we did before and get back in gear at eating the way we should. Good for me and for John. His cholesterol is high too and need to get it down. I DO NOT want ANYTHING to happen to him. Why does this have to be so hard. I do know that I have it figured out it is NOT a DIET (I hate that word) it is a LIFESTYLE change. I do so want to feel better and look better for my family, but most important ME!!!!! If we (women) don't take care of ourselves then we are no good to our families.
I want to be around for a while anyway. I had lost 25 lbs. and felt great. I walked, and fixed low-fat meals for the 2 of us and walked 6 out of 7 days. And it came off and I felt GREAT. So, back to shopping, fixing, and eating , the things I should be doing for the 2 of us. Think I will be eating oatmeal for a while. Will join the fitness center in Carey for the winter to and work on the machines they have, see if Katrina wants to do it too, since she lives over here now. that way once I start I can keep going.
Isn't it crazy what we let our minds do to us? Think I will try and get some sleep now, first I will say a prayer, that always seems to help me.